Motherhood

One thing I know for sure is Motherhood looks differently for every mother. But I also know that motherhood is the same for every mother, in the sense of, we’re all doing what we feel is best for our little ones.

For some it’s a rough road, for some it’s been as easy as pie, and for some it seems best a road untraveled. Whether God blessed you with your own, or He led you down the road to bring your baby home, we’re all mothers loving our blessings to the best of our abilities!

My entire life I’ve felt like my “big questionin life has been, “What is my purpose?” While I believe some people have such a vividly clear vision of their purpose, I believe some it comes later in life in several snapshots of time. For so long I thought my purpose was something in music, but no matter what I did or tried, I never could get a life in music to work for me. I finally realized music was only a blessing to me, not necessarily a purpose.

Motherhood took me by surprise when it felt so right. If you’ve been with me for awhile, you’ve probably read my post about how I never thought I’d want to be a part of motherhood, if you haven’t, you can find it here. So you can imagine what a pleasant surprise and blessing it has been to truly let God mold me into who He wants me to be and to fully give him the reigns. I definitely still struggle with trying to “take control” but it’s when I let go that He showed me my true purpose. Motherhood.

I wouldn’t change a single thing. Some days it’s so incredibly hard and you think you can only bend and bend until you just can’t anymore. At the end of those days, I just try to tell myself, tomorrow is a new day and I have a new chance to be better and do better. I try not to ever let those days spill into my next day. Then some days are so wonderful and fun and so incredibly rewarding. Seeing the world through new eyes as I watch my little bear learn and see new things. To hear his laugh and watch his eyes in little boy wonder. So many little joys fill their days, I can’t help but feel those joys too.

So just remember mama, we’re all in this together and we’re all “figuring it out.” So when you see another mama, give her an encouraging word, or look, or nod. A simple gesture could mean so much to that mama who’s been up since 5, with a baby clinging to her side, trying to get the mountain of dishes done, the load after load of laundry put away, and get food on the table. She may just need to feel understood and seen. Never underestimate your power as an emotional human being.

I never thought I’d be the person to spend so much time wrapped up in one title, but Motherhood is both a mystery and a place that feels like home. Thank God for mothers.

*ASpottedHeart

Cowboy Q&A

This is one of the first (of many) photos I took after One Cute Cowboy and I started dating. That grin *swoon* still gets me. I thought it might be fun to do a little Q&A with The Cowboy, himself! So here’s a few things to get to know One Cute Cowboy a little better. So I asked him the questions in bold and his answers are in the italics. Hope y’all enjoy this little Q&A!!

Horses or Cattle?

Cattle

Favorite color & breed of horse?

A dapple grey, Quarter-Horse

Black Angus or Red Angus Cattle?

Black

Herefords or Charlois?

Herefords, they make black baldies

Is it “Leggin’s” or “Chaps”?

Leggins

Is it a rope or lasso?

It’s a rope.

Favorite cut of meat?

Ribeye

Bumper-pull or Gooseneck?

Gooseneck, ’cause you can spin that sucker ’round.

How should it be cooked?

Medium, with lots of juice.

How do you like your potato cut?

French fries.

Favorite Silversmith?

Sam Jenkins.

Favorite leather-maker?

Good buddies, Rem Mosimann and Clay Jackson.

Our wedding gifts to one another, His a new pair of leggins, mine a new guitar strap. Both made by Rem Mosimann.

Favorite breed of dog?

Blue Heeler.

Favorite piece of tac?

Saddle.

Favorite type of saddle?

Seat Rig.

Favorite Cowboy hat?

American.

Straw or Felt hat?

Just depends on the season.

Favorite cold weather garment?

Kanaine Shop Pendleton Cowl.

Branding Season or Calving Season?

Branding

What did you want to be when you were little?

A farmer or rancher.

If you could live anywhere, where would you go?

The Nebraska Sandhills.

What’s your favorite western?

John Wayne’s The Cowboys.

If you weren’t a Cowboy, what would you be doing?

I have no idea. Hopefully something Ag related. (He thought long and hard about this too!)

Whats your favorite part of being a Cowboy?

Getting to work first-hand with God’s creation, daily.

Hope you’ve had a great weekend!

*ASpottedHeart

Wellness Roller

Y’all, this is the season to keep your immune system in tip-top shape! It makes me cringe to start hearing all the coughing and sniffling that starts happening this time of year. I literally wash my hands 50-60 times a day. I should really try to keep count one day and actually see. But honestly, I try to take so many precautions to keep my wellness up; I wash my hands, use my Thieves Hand Sanitizer when I’ve been in public places, at work I use only my pen, and I try my dangdest not to touch doorknobs, (I use my elbow or bum to push open or close doors.) But one of my biggest things I use to combat the nasties is being diligent about using my Wellness Roller.

It’s so simple, I roll it onto the bottoms of both feet before putting on my socks in the morning and just like that it’s boosting my immune system. One Cute Cowboy prefers to roll his on before bed—and sometimes we both roll it on morning and night! So I decided to share my wellness roller blend with all of my lovely followers! So here’s what I use, and why:

Thieves: So this one may be a little “on the nose” because of course our wellness roller is going to have Thieves, the mother of “wellness” oil! Thieves contains Clove, Lemon, Cinnamon Bark, Eucalyptus Radiata, and Rosemary Cineol. It’s an immune stimulant, a purifier,and can help reduce mental fatigue.

Frankincense: Easily one of my favorite oils. It’s known as an oil enhancer so any oil’s properties that are paired with Frankincense will be amplified. Seriously, how cool is that?! It also helps promote emotional balance, reduces stress (which is SO important to your immune system) and of course is another great immune stimulant.

Tea Tree: When I was pregnant with Little Bear, because I was so limited on what I could and couldn’t use to fight off the nasties, I’d roll this single oil on my feet each day. It’s a great antioxidant, expectorant, and it’s antiviral. An oil that, in my opinion, doesn’t get enough spotlight! I love this oil!

Copaiba: This is one I’ve really started using a lot the last 7-8 months. It’s a huge help with inflammation. And let’s face it inflammation isn’t good in your body for any reason. Boosts the Cardiovascular system and supports overall wellness in the body.

These are the main 4 I always use in my Wellness Roller, but sometimes I add one of these–

Eucalyptus Radiata: I loooovvveee the smell of this one and it’s almost always in my shower blends. It’s energizing, it’s huge in respiratory support, and helps with inflammation.

Lemon: I always have Lemon on hand! It’s a huge antioxidant, provides circulatory support and contains cleansing properties.

So I usually just kind of wing-it when it comes to how many drops of each oil I do, but here’s a round-about what it usually contains.

15 drops of Thieves

10 drops of Frankincense

10-15 drops of Tea Tree

10-15 drops of Copaiba

5-8 drops of Eucalyptus Radiata

10-15 drops of Lemon

Then I fill the rest of the roller up with a carrier oil like Young Living’s V-6 oil or coconut oil. For the bottle I usually recycle an old 15ml oil bottle and pop a roller ball on top and just like that it’s done! It literally takes 2 minutes to put together and lasts a month or more.

I’d love to answer any of your questions you might have about this blend or oils in general, so shoot me a message! I love to talk oils! Hope you enjoyed this recipe!

*Disclaimer* I’m a firm believe in oils and their healing properties but I’m most certainly not a doctor, I am not a homeopathic guru, I’m just sharing what’s worked for me and my family. I highly recommend consulting with a doctor before orally consuming any oil. Also, I don’t recommend using straight oil on the skin if you’ve never used that particular oil before. When using an oil for the first time I always recommend using it with a carrier oil like Coconut oil or any vegetable based oil, for it may show skin irritants otherwise. Cinnamon bark is a potent oil along with Clove. Always keep in mind while using oils to use sparingly. Lastly I am not saying these oils will cure any ailment, I’m simply stating that these are oils that have worked for me.**

*ASpottedHeart

Life on the Ponderosa as of Lately

Last week I asked in my Instagram stories what ya’ll wanted to see more of in 2019. A lot of you answered with “all of it,” Ranch Life, DIY, Mom Life, Mood Boards… so with that I thought I’d start with an update on what One Cute Cowboy has been up to lately. ( If you don’t follow me over on Instagram, what are you waiting for?!)

Winter=Wheat pasture season for One Cute Cowboy. So he spends his days checking the different pastures, doctoring anything that’s not doing well, feeding, hauling water, fixing hot wire fence, and breaking ice. I talked all about wheat pasture cattle in last December’s Ponderosa Post. It always seems to me, like wheat pasture months are a really long Cowboy “season” but this year OCC didn’t take on quite as many cattle since Lil’ Cute Cowboy is in the picture, and it hasn’t seemed quite so bad.

The weather here on the Ponderosa has been one extreme to the other. One weekend we had an inch of snow with about 24hrs of light rain before it, and then turned around and had 50-60 degree weather the next weekend. Ya never know what you’re gonna get here in the Panhandle! But on those nice days, Little Bear and I try to do some outings with One Cute Cowboy.

Little Bear loves to go and look at and feed the cows with his dad. He gets excited to hear them “Moo” and to see them come running to the feed truck.

This past week we brought our first load of heifers in to start calving. Yesterday it officially began with the mama I had picked to calve first, did indeed, have the first calf of the season! Calving Season has officially begun!

That’s the latest here on the Ponderosa! Hope you’ve enjoyed the little update!

What would you like to hear more of? Leave me a comment below!

*ASpottedHeart

Animals on the Ponderosa

This month I decided to do something a little different. I thought I’d let you in on what the animals, here on the Ponderosa, have been up to lately.

As you can see from the picture, the dogs all make pretty dang good babysitters. 😉 They’ve all become a little more interested in the Lil Cowboy scootin’ around, (except for Huck of course, because he’s only interested in Huck.) Lil Cute Cowboy is also starting to take a bigger interest in them as well.

I couldn’t get him to look up because he was too engrossed in what Charlie was doing!

He likes to watch them run around and growl and wrestle with each other. He thinks it’s funny when they bark, which is pretty cute. Huck has pretty much become an outside dog. Huck was our only exclusively indoor dog, the only time he really spent outside was when we were outside as well. It was so hard keeping his hair off of things in the house once we brought Little Bear home, that we made the decision to transition him into an outside dog. It was a little rough at first, but now he loves to be outside with the others and bark and play. He still gets to come in on occasion, but for the most part, he’s happy being outside. He’ll be 8 this coming November.I’m pretty sure Hershey imprinted on Little Bear. Where my Twilight readers at? But really, she loves to be wherever he is; if he’s in bed, she lays in the room, if one of us is holding him she lays at our feet, outside she’s not far from his stroller, she really loves him. Even though she doesn’t really get up in his business or anything, she’ll let him pet her (read as: pull her fur) and sometimes sneaks a lick in on him. She’s still our gentle giant (unless you’re a stranger, then she’s just a growling giant 😬) and we’re still so thankful we’ve had the opportunity to be her family.Bumper has been her usual self. She’s head Queen, and all the dogs are mere peasants, and the other cats just don’t exist in her world. She’s spent most of her summer days laying in the garage on top of the deep freeze. Ha! She loves it there. She comes out in the evenings to boss around the dogs, and see what bugs she can play with. She’ll sit outside all night and jump and bat at the bugs that dance around the mercury light. She’s starting to put her fall/winter coat back on as the evenings get cooler.

It’s just about impossible to get a picture of PongaGirl! She’s always on the go, and hunting every chance she gets. Especially those noisy locust! She’ll hunt those down to make them stop their buzzing! If she’s not off hunting she’s begging for your undivided attention, as shown above.Izzy has been at the homestead the last month hanging out with Sunny & Rooster. She said it’s not like hanging out with Tex, but they’ll do. She likes to come to the fence to ask for cake and try to nibble at Lil Cowboy’s curious hands.

Sinatra still wants “pets” 24/7 and likes to talk to you the whole time you’re in the pens. He likes to roam from barn to barn and lounge wherever it’s cool.This is our sweet pup, Poppy. She’s from Ponga’s litter last Fall. She never found a good home to go to. She makes 5 puppers on the Ponderosa. We’d really like for her to go to a good home where she has plenty of room to roam and others dogs to play with. She loves to play and roam around with the others every chance she gets. She’s very lovable and full of life!Olive or “Quonset-Kitty” as we call her. She loves to hang out with One Cute Cowboy and see what all he’s up to. She’s our sweet kitty, but she doesn’t let the dogs get away with anything, that’s for sure! Fur-cat’s favorite place to be is still in the Tac house. We have to be sure and kick her out because it gets so dang hot in there. She likes to prowl around the pens and see whatever vermin she can scrounge up. Through the summer months she likes to stay cool by napping in the hay bales.

And lastly, Charlie’s favorite place to be is anywhere she can snuggle up, inside. You can guarantee this pup will make herself scarce if it means she can be inside. Though the puppers haven’t been in much, she still tries just about everyday. Outside though, she can always find a ball for you to throw! Though she loves to chase the cats, none of them really put up with it.

I’ve got two cowboys wanting to add to the madness on the Ponderosa, but I think we’ll wait. ☺️ we do love our “cheep cheeps” though, so I bet next spring we’ll be running chickens and ducks! Haha!

Hope you’ve enjoyed this little update from the fur-family on the Ponderosa. Happy Fall all! I’m so glad it’s finally September!

*ASpottedHeart

July on the Ponderosa

Lil’ Cute Cowboy coming nose-to-nose with his first bronc!

July has felt long and short all at once. Seems like just last week I was writing June’s Ponderosa post, but at the same time, there’s also been a lot of happenings this month.

One Cute Cowboy kicked off the month by completely replacing the floor in his stock trailer. This took a few days and evenings, and the finished product was well worth the time spent. It’s as good as new!

We celebrated the 4th of July with family and friends in the park of our small community. We had hamburgers and hotdogs and homecut French fries. Our local firefighters did all the cooking. It was delicious. We threw our big jean & fleece blanket on the ground and ate and listened to the live band. Bratcher wasn’t sure what to think of it all at first, but he warmed up to it. He even got to meet one of his future little classmates!

Guess what else One Cute Cowboy did this month. No guesses? Fixed and built more fence! Haha! As I’ve said before, it’s truly a never ending job. I guess it’s job security, because there’s always fence to be worked on somewhere. He finished up building the hot wire fence for the CRP cattle and got them all moved to their new pastures for the next couple months.

Along with CRP cattle, comes the job of hauling water. Most CRP pastures don’t have a water source, therefore the Cowboy’s have to haul the water to the cows every, single, day. The little rig above is new to the ranch, and has been pretty dang handy. The Cowboys haul water to 3 pastures everyday, and it takes around 2 hours from start to finish. I always like to go haul water, though I haven’t gotten to this year any. It’s always fun to see the cows come in for a fresh, cool drink of water.

It was unbearably hot here for about 2 weeks. It reached 106 for a high and we were over 100 for 6 days! Days like that make me so ready for fall to come around. It’s especially important on days like that to make sure every pasture has water and all windmills are working as they should. This month also consisted of a lot of water checking and more windmill oil checking.

The Cowboys rotated some of the cattle around to different “summer” pastures to give some of the land a break. As I talked about in June’s post, it’s just as important to take care of our land as much as the cattle. God made us to be good stewards of both, for they’re each a living thing and have been gifted to us.

As you may have gathered, One Cute Cowboy is a jack of many many trades! He is also a Superior Livestock representative. He spent part of the month contracting and selling cattle through Superior. July is a busy time because of the annual Superior sale that happens up in the Rockies. The first year we went it was up in Steamboat,CO. The last two years it’s been in Breckinridge, CO. We didn’t go this year but OCC and my dad watched a lot of the sale online on the Superior website. Each year OCC contracts calves for local producers that top the markets throughout the United States. We have some dang good cattle in this part of the country! Be sure and contact OCC if you have some cattle that need reppin’. 😉

OCC did quite a bit of maintenance work on machinery and trailers this month. As I’ve mentioned before, he likes to keep everything in tip-top shape!

He also cleaned out the pens here at the house a couple evenings. It’s important to keep your pens clean of old manure and hay. It helps the animal stay healthier and keeps their immune systems strong. As well as it cuts down on those pesky flies! It’s not just a healthier environment for them to live in, but a happier one!

Here on the homefront we had our first successful grocery shopping trip with Little Bear! Woohoo! This may not seem like a big feat for most, but it was for this little family! We also went to our first church service. He did completely awesome at both! He’s such a trooper!

Well, there are the happening for us in July here at the Ponderosa. Hope you had a good July, stay tuned this August for a special edition from the animals on the Ponderosa!

*ASpottedHeart

June on the Ponderosa

Well, readers, I’m gonna be real honest with ya, One Cute Cowboy and I dropped the ball taking pictures around the Ponderosa this month. I have a camera roll full of ‘lil Cute Cowboy, but none of the ranch. OCC has been busy, and it totally slipped his mind to take pictures this month as well. So I’m gonna post some random ones from over the last few years while I talk about what all has been going on around the Ponderosa this month.

We started off June with our community’s annual Santa Fe Trail Daze celebration. This was Little Bear’s first parade to watch and he did okay until the sirens and the few semi-trucks that thought it was funny to blow their horns (insert annoyed face here). Poor guy didn’t like that at all, but the rest he was pretty interested in. I guess you could say this was his first “official”‘outing.

OCC finally finished up with all the branding crews, branding a little over 3,000 head in a short (or long, depending on who you’re asking!) 6 weeks.

One Cute Cowboy built a lot of fence in the month of June! He and our nephew spent several days building fence around CRP grass for our cattle to graze this summer. If you’re not familiar with CRP (Conservariin Reserve Program) I talked all about it in my October on the Ponderosa post, when we were taking cattle off CRP. In short, it’s the governments way to (1) “conserve soil, water quality, and provide wildlife habitats by establishing long-term cover on highly erodible land or land in need of conservation buffers that has previously been in row crop production.”

My husband is a bit obsessed with grass and grass quality, and taking proper care of the grass. He spends days figuring and refiguring numbers making sure he’s putting just enough cattle on a piece of land to get the best use out of grass for the cattle while still making sure the grass thrives and is in just as good of shape when the cattle leave the grass. Overgrazing absolutely kills him! He can’t stand to see land being misused and the poor cattle that are left with nothing else to do but overgraze. We must be good stewards of our land just as much as we are to our animals. He takes the ecosystem very seriously, and he’s sure to do his part to make sure this is a better place after we leave it. He’s a total land-lover.

But, back to the fence–they built close to 10 miles of fence…as I’ve said before, when people think of cowboys, I don’t think people take into consideration how much time isn’t spent on a horse. This was one of those months where being horseback was few and far between.

OCC spent a couple days up high on the windmills checking oil and doing maintenance where needed on each one. As one can imagine, this always makes me pretty nervous when I know he’s getting up on a windmill, luckily he has a safety harness he uses, which puts this gal’s mind at ease…somewhat.

The bulls were especially rambunctious this month. We’ve got a few ornery ones that kept getting out to visit the cows in the different pastures. So you know what that means? More fence was worked on! Haha! I’d say One Cute Cowboy wouldn’t consider it a laughing matter. But I say, the bulls get bored and just want to go visit their girlfriend(s) in the other pastures. He doesn’t think I’m funny.

The last week or so of the month One Cute Cowboy worked on different equipment around the ranch so everything stays up to par and runs smoothly when needed.

Somewhere in there, between the hustle and bustle, we took our first family vacation to Red River. I talked all about it in my last post.

That pretty much wraps up the month of June at the Ponderosa! Hope y’all enjoyed! Can’t believe the summer is already about halfway over.

*ASpottedHeart

(1): Conservation Reserve Program

May on the Ponderosa

Well, here we are starting into June. My oh my, how summer has rushed upon us! It’s been in the upper 80’s low 90’s the last couple weeks, which feels insane to be that warm already. But I will say, we’ve had some nice little thunderstorms! We’re always thankful for rain!!

This month has been full of more brandings for One Cute Cowboy. 2,900 calves in 21 days to be exact!

Started the month off with finishing up the branding at the ranch headquarters and has been gypsy jumping around from ranch to ranch “dayworking” (helping other ranches for a short time), all month!

This time of the year is tough on cowboys because not only are they working long hard days but they have to get their normal jobs completed and cows checked and problems dealt with on their own ranches after “dayworking” for the other ranches. Needless to say, they can turn into VERY long days! No one ever said being a Cowboy’s wife would be easy.

OCC had the yearly branding at my in-laws in New Mexico, just on the other side of Kenton, Oklahoma this month as well. Once again, Lil Cute Cowboy and I decided to stay home since it would be hot, windy, and dusty. This mama bear is still a little overly protective. ☺️

The brand on the calf pictured above is One Cute Cowboy’s great grandpa’s brand. It’s been in his family for 5 generations! Agriculture is all about tradition you know. It’s neat to know that the calves have received this same brand for all of these years.

The bulls of the ranch were finally happy to be placed out in their different pastures for the summer. It’s important to make sure and give the bulls and cows a break from one another. Some of the bulls will be gathered back up in July, and some will get to stay with the cows until October.

Speaking of bulls, we got all of our registered bulls delivered this month as well. It’s a good feeling to have them all placed at good ranches .

One Cute Cowboy and I have our own little herd that got vaccinated and branded this month too. Have I ever told you about Mama, the friendly cow? She’s an older cow that Riley and I got in our first herd right after we got married. She is such a sweetheart, she’ll come right up to eat cake out of your hand (she’s actually usually up in your business trying to see if you actually have any cake in your hands to snatch up!) She always throws us a good little bull calf each year, which we’re always happy to see! She’s talked one of the other mamas into coming up to us too. We call this ‘ol gal Sister.

One of the biggest changes this month on the Ponderosa is I went back to work at my 9 to 5. It’s been incredibly hard leaving Little Bear everyday, but we’re getting more of a routine down and learning and growing. I try to remind myself to just be in the moment and not to dwell on not being with him all day. It’s definitely hard on this mama!

This Lil Ranch Kid is growing like crazy and smiling and laughing and just so much dang fun! Our hearts are full here on the Ponderosa.

Happy June!

*ASpottedHeart

April on the Ponderosa

I’m sorry it’s taken me so long to get April posted. It’s been a busy month for both OCC and I. Please bare with this mama while she gets her blogging-legs back under her. 🙂

Seriously?! It’s May??! How? When?! I can’t believe how time is flying. Oh don’t mind me, I’ve just been at home snuggling little bear and soaking up every second I possibly can with him. With that said, One Cute Cowboy has to give me the run down on what’s all been happening on the Ponderosa.

One Cute Cowboy spent the first couple weeks of April STILL feeding cows, checking calves and fixing fence and beginning to make sure all the fences were good for the summer. That way he’s not having to work on a lot of fence in the heat of the summer months. Some may not think of fences when they think of cowboying, but it’s a constant job to keep up.

We have a few cows left to calve but we finally finished up calving all but one out of 106 heifers. The babies are now out in the pastures with their mamas, learning the ropes of being on the ranch. It’s always fun to see those sweet babies all playing together, running around and kicking. I absolutely love baby calves!

Have I ever mentioned we raise registered black angus bulls? One Cute Cowboy and my dad have bulls available all the time. Before selling these bulls they have to vaccinate them, and test the bulls sperm count, making sure they’re ready to perform their jobs before shipping them out to the customer. They want to ensure they’re sending out the best possible bull they can and to achieve that, they test them and keep their vaccines up to date. To do this, they have to haul all 20 to the vet in town. It’s quite the job since most of the time it’s the little guy’s first trip to the big city! It also couldn’t be done without our incredible vet Rusty Murdock and the gals at the clinic!

In the ladder end of the month it was time for the cowboys to put what they call “cidrs” into the cows that will be AI’d. In short, what this does is it makes the cow more fertile and gives her a higher pregnancy rate along with giving the Cowboys more of an exact date of when the calves will be born because it puts the entire herd in the same time frame of fertilization. The cidr goes in for exactly 7 days and then they take the cidrs out and 63 hours later, on the dot, a vet comes out to AI the cows. After they AI’d, Lil’ Cute Cowboy, my mom (Yia-Yia), and I took lunch out to the cowboys and LCC said hello to the cows…or they said hello to him.

See the little guy in the background? He wanted to see this new little “bull calf” but wasn’t quite sure how close to get. 😉

Cutest little bull calf I’ve ever seen! 😍

In the last weekend/week of April, One Cute Cowboy started helping the neighbors with their annual spring brandings. There are going to be A LOT of them! He gets grumpy, and tired but he lives for spring works! And, there will be plenty of stories to be told of them in June! We also had our first family branding as well!

I’m fairly certain the wind blew 9-0 the entire month of April so needless to say Lil’ CC and I didn’t get out to the branding, or outside much in general. But we did go with One Cute Cowboy to doctor a calf one day…

And went out to watch him trim Rio another day.

And we took a short walk another nice day.

That pretty much wraps up April. All-in-all it felt like an incredibly fast, but packed month. Here we are already a week into May! I just can’t believe it!

Happy Thursday!

*ASpottedHeart

Mama Bear 🐻

I can’t believe my baby bear will be a month old this week! I always thought it was a little silly when I’d hear other moms say this but, Time, slow down already!! I totally get it now, he’s already changing so fast. While I love it, it’s also a little sad because he’s not my little newborn anymore. I never knew I could love being a mom this much. Most of you probably read my Pregnancy Truths post, and know my journey to this point; but even still I never dreamed I would love this stage so much. It can be hard and frustrating and oh-so tiresome, but when this little guy falls asleep on my chest, or his little blue eyes look into mine, I completely melt and it’s hard to imagine life any other way.

Moms, I know I’m not telling you anything new, this isn’t some new revelation on Mom’s loving their children, but it’s a bit of awakening in my own heart that I just want to share I guess.

I didn’t get to share my Lil’ Cute Cowboy’s “full” birthing story last week so I want to share a little more about it with you today.

At 9:30 the night I went into labor, One Cute Cowboy and I had just gotten home from going into town to get supper at Subway. He decided to go check the heifers before coming inside to eat so I went out to the pens with him. There was a heifer whom was clearly having trouble having her calf, so he got her into the chute to pull the calf.

OCC started to pull the calf and was having some difficulty, then the mama went down in the chute which makes it near impossible to continue pulling a calf when a heifer goes down like that. So I was trying with all I could to get her to stand back up while OCC continued to try to save this calf and get it pulled. He asked me to go get a sorting stick, to poke her with,out of the pickup, so here I am 9 months and 1 day over due and I’m at a trot to the pickup so we can get this mama up. (One Cute Cowboy still thinks this is the reason I went into labor.) I got back and OCC had successfully pulled the calf and it was alive and well, but the mama was going to need stitched up. So we got the pickup and trailer and hauled her into the vet to be stitched up and get her back to her calf. We got back to the house around 11:00 and went to bed.

A mere hour and half later I woke up, just like I had been the last 7-8 months, to go to the bathroom, but when I got up, my water broke and I had a really strong and long contraction. I knew the time had finally come! I woke up One Cute Cowboy and he looked at me in disbelief. Haha! Poor guy had been waiting for months to meet his son, and now that it was time he looked at me with a look of shock and said, “right now?!” We got our bags I’d packed a few weeks earlier and headed out the door. Although if you were to ask OCC, he’d say I dilly-dallied. 😏

We said a short prayer together as we left our home and we were on the road to Amarillo. I started having consistent contractions as we pulled out of the drive that were only 5 minutes a part. I must say, at that point OCC and I were pretty scared because they were so close together and we still had a 2 hour drive ahead of us!!! They stayed at a steady 5 minutes apart as One Cute Cowboy drove 90 with his hazards flashing. Praise God for He was watching over us and we made it to Amarillo at 3 a.m.

Once we got to the hospital, time seemed to slow down a bit. They got me in my room and started getting my IV hooked up and my contractions were now starting to get stronger, but still about 5 minutes a part. Something I’d gone back and forth about was whether or not I wanted an epidural. Have I ever mentioned how much I hate needles? Also, I guess I’m a little “crunchy” you could say, and I was torn between not wanting to feel unbearable pain, and wanting to have the full experience of bringing another human being into the world. Let me just tell you, after those contractions started getting stronger, the only thing I could think of is what a saint those women who don’t get epidurals are! I told One Cute Cowboy I had a whole new respect for my Mom who had 3 girls without any medication. So as you may have already guessed, I opted for the epidural and after that, it was a little smoother sailing. OCC and I actually both took naps believe it or not!

About 9 hours later it was time for Bratcher to finally make an appearance. It was the hardest, most rewarding thing I’ve ever done in my life. The human body is absolutely mind-blowing what it can endure and do! It can be pushed to what feels like it’s limits only to prove to you it can do so much more. God truly did something magnificent when he created us.

When you see that little guy, that’s been inside of you growing and thriving the last 9 months, finally face to face it’s the truest purest form of love at first sight. To know that he is yours is incomprehensible in that moment and there’s an overwhelming feeling of pure joy.

One Cute Cowboy was a complete trooper through the entire process! He never left my side. He got to do his part as well, some pretty amazing Dad stuff! He immediately was handed towels to start drying him off, he cut the umbilical cord, then once he was ready OCC helped measure him, weigh him, and put on his first diaper. A little later he helped give him his first bath. It’s amazing how instantaneously my love also grew for him in those moments.

Now here we are a month later, being parents! My days are all mashed together. Spending most of our time nursing, sleeping, and a little play/reading time each day. OCC and I’s evenings consist of cooing over whatever cuteness Lil Cute Cowboy is serving up and just enjoying being Mom and Dad. One Cute Cowboy has been amazing about making breakfast and supper, cleaning, and making sure LilCC and I don’t want or need for anything! He’s pretty amazing. 😍

Even though it’s incredibly scary to be 100% responsible for another human being, it’s incredibly rewarding to be this little bear’s mama. I thank God everyday for these two Cowboy’s He’s put in my life.

Hope you’ve had a great weekend!

*ASpottedHeart