Momheart

Quite frankly, I could care less about football, so here I am folding laundry, watching my little guy sleep. This has been a week! Really in all aspects, but my role as Mom has especially been tested. We haven’t eaten as healthy as I’d have liked this week, which makes me cringe because I know the affects of not eating well. So, when bad sleep and emotional meltdowns happen, I can’t help but kick myself. But I’m gonna lay my momma heart open for you, what makes it worst is when I get irritated or lose my temper because of said meltdowns and lack of sleep. The guilt that follows is enough to make me want to do, no be, better.

Mom guilt has to be the worst form of guilt. I can’t help but think about things I’ve read, talking about how our children see and use how we respond and act to things, as a guideline for how they respond and act. You can’t help but ask the question, am I doing enough? Am I making the right choices for my child? Am I being a good example? It’s hard not to question every stage of Motherhood. But what I have learned is to lean into God and ask for guidance, patience, and reassurance in the things I do for my little bear (and really all things in life.) I don’t care how together the mom down the street seems-everyone has questions of what’s best for their child. At the end of the day what our kiddos really want, is us. I try to remember that after the 10th time he’s said, “Mama! Sit sit! Play!” Haha! But honestly, it’s time, Mama, to sit, and just play. In another 10 years he might not ask. I can physically feel my heart ache just thinking about it.

I guess my point is, keep doing the best you can do, whatever works for you and your family, lean into God, and don’t ever be too busy to sit and play.

Mom Moment

My Little Cute Cowboy is 7 months old. How exactly did that happen?! It feels like yesterday I was worried about keeping his head and neck propped up properly while I held him, now, he’s on my hip whipping his head left to right to see everything going on around us. Time slow down!

I’ve had several “Mom Moments.” You know the ones, those moment when it hits you square in the face that you’re a mom. That for the rest of your life you’ll hold the title, Mom. I’ve had many of these moments in these last 7 months. They’re a lot like “Ah-hah” moments. But today, today I realllly felt like a mom.

Little Bear and I made our first solo trip out of town for the day! It was a two hour drive to our destination, the furthest we’ve ever gone without a little assistance in the car with us. Usually One Cute Cowboy goes with us, but this was short notice, and had to be done so it was just the two of us!

The trip there was good, he did great! He slept most of the way which was a total win, and he was pretty happy and comfortable in the times he was awake. It poured down rain the entire trip, so I think they helped him sleep good the steady sound of raindrops. We went to our appointment, had a picnic of Chic-fil-a in the backseat of the pickup ( well I had Chic, he had a bottle) and then we decided to brave Target. Mind you, this is our first solo trip to a bigger city, and shopping is definitely something we haven’t done, so I was taking a pretty good gamble here.

I’m painstakingly aware of my surroundings. I’m talking if something doesn’t look right, I’m not stopping! I let my intuition guide me 99% of the time. Being by myself, handling a 7 month old, I was a bit nervous. Once we got from the pickup to the storefront in the pouring rain, we were golden! He did awesome! He sat in his carseat while I walked through the women’s clothes, and kids clothes, and then I got him out and he hung out on my hip the rest of the time, in complete awe of all the people and all the things there were to look at. Not to mention, it must have been Mom & Baby Day at Target. I bet I saw 4 or 5 other babies around his age, and then several younger, and a few toddler to about 7-8yo. I felt like there was a Mom Club meeting to meet up for and we were all just Mommin’ through our day like a bunch of bosses! Little Bear and I got our things and checked out,then braved the rain again back out to the pickup.

Once loaded and headed home, I thought to myself, “Man, I realllly felt like a mom today.” I know this may sound funny or strange, but it was just one of those moments (and small victories) for me and I thought I’d share. As I was walking through the aisles, I was that woman with the baby, I was that woman looking for new pajamas for my kiddo, I was the woman scanning the aisles with the baby on her hip…I’m still getting used to this Mom Life, and continuously learning and bettering myself because of it. Whoever said, “Mommin’ ain’t easy,” definitely had it right, but I wouldn’t trade a single day of it for any other kind of life.

*ASpottedHeart