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Quite frankly, I could care less about football, so here I am folding laundry, watching my little guy sleep. This has been a week! Really in all aspects, but my role as Mom has especially been tested. We haven’t eaten as healthy as I’d have liked this week, which makes me cringe because I know the affects of not eating well. So, when bad sleep and emotional meltdowns happen, I can’t help but kick myself. But I’m gonna lay my momma heart open for you, what makes it worst is when I get irritated or lose my temper because of said meltdowns and lack of sleep. The guilt that follows is enough to make me want to do, no be, better.

Mom guilt has to be the worst form of guilt. I can’t help but think about things I’ve read, talking about how our children see and use how we respond and act to things, as a guideline for how they respond and act. You can’t help but ask the question, am I doing enough? Am I making the right choices for my child? Am I being a good example? It’s hard not to question every stage of Motherhood. But what I have learned is to lean into God and ask for guidance, patience, and reassurance in the things I do for my little bear (and really all things in life.) I don’t care how together the mom down the street seems-everyone has questions of what’s best for their child. At the end of the day what our kiddos really want, is us. I try to remember that after the 10th time he’s said, “Mama! Sit sit! Play!” Haha! But honestly, it’s time, Mama, to sit, and just play. In another 10 years he might not ask. I can physically feel my heart ache just thinking about it.

I guess my point is, keep doing the best you can do, whatever works for you and your family, lean into God, and don’t ever be too busy to sit and play.

April on the Ponderosa

I’m sorry it’s taken me so long to get April posted. It’s been a busy month for both OCC and I. Please bare with this mama while she gets her blogging-legs back under her. 🙂

Seriously?! It’s May??! How? When?! I can’t believe how time is flying. Oh don’t mind me, I’ve just been at home snuggling little bear and soaking up every second I possibly can with him. With that said, One Cute Cowboy has to give me the run down on what’s all been happening on the Ponderosa.

One Cute Cowboy spent the first couple weeks of April STILL feeding cows, checking calves and fixing fence and beginning to make sure all the fences were good for the summer. That way he’s not having to work on a lot of fence in the heat of the summer months. Some may not think of fences when they think of cowboying, but it’s a constant job to keep up.

We have a few cows left to calve but we finally finished up calving all but one out of 106 heifers. The babies are now out in the pastures with their mamas, learning the ropes of being on the ranch. It’s always fun to see those sweet babies all playing together, running around and kicking. I absolutely love baby calves!

Have I ever mentioned we raise registered black angus bulls? One Cute Cowboy and my dad have bulls available all the time. Before selling these bulls they have to vaccinate them, and test the bulls sperm count, making sure they’re ready to perform their jobs before shipping them out to the customer. They want to ensure they’re sending out the best possible bull they can and to achieve that, they test them and keep their vaccines up to date. To do this, they have to haul all 20 to the vet in town. It’s quite the job since most of the time it’s the little guy’s first trip to the big city! It also couldn’t be done without our incredible vet Rusty Murdock and the gals at the clinic!

In the ladder end of the month it was time for the cowboys to put what they call “cidrs” into the cows that will be AI’d. In short, what this does is it makes the cow more fertile and gives her a higher pregnancy rate along with giving the Cowboys more of an exact date of when the calves will be born because it puts the entire herd in the same time frame of fertilization. The cidr goes in for exactly 7 days and then they take the cidrs out and 63 hours later, on the dot, a vet comes out to AI the cows. After they AI’d, Lil’ Cute Cowboy, my mom (Yia-Yia), and I took lunch out to the cowboys and LCC said hello to the cows…or they said hello to him.

See the little guy in the background? He wanted to see this new little “bull calf” but wasn’t quite sure how close to get. 😉

Cutest little bull calf I’ve ever seen! 😍

In the last weekend/week of April, One Cute Cowboy started helping the neighbors with their annual spring brandings. There are going to be A LOT of them! He gets grumpy, and tired but he lives for spring works! And, there will be plenty of stories to be told of them in June! We also had our first family branding as well!

I’m fairly certain the wind blew 9-0 the entire month of April so needless to say Lil’ CC and I didn’t get out to the branding, or outside much in general. But we did go with One Cute Cowboy to doctor a calf one day…

And went out to watch him trim Rio another day.

And we took a short walk another nice day.

That pretty much wraps up April. All-in-all it felt like an incredibly fast, but packed month. Here we are already a week into May! I just can’t believe it!

Happy Thursday!

*ASpottedHeart