Jealousy. It’s a terrible, green-eyed dragon that breathes anger and untruths. If you’re not careful, the dragon will defeat you and leave you bitter and full of negativity and anger. With that said, I think it’s important to slay the dragon just as soon as he rears his ugly head.
I think there’s a few different forms of jealousy. There is jealousy because of insecurities, this is when you’re so unsure and self-conscious of yourself or your relationship, or your looks, or whatever it is, that you’re jealous of anyone that has what you want or what you think is “acceptable.”
Then there’s jealousy out of comparison. This is when you’re constantly evaluating your life by comparing it to someone else’s, then jealousy rears its nasty head because it appears someone else’s life/body/relationship seems better than yours. This one can be a nasty one. While I think it’s good to have goals and to have role-models, it’s important to remember everyone is their own person, and not one life is alike. The best way to sum this one up is this:
Comparison is the thief of joy.
And just like that, comparison steals the joy in your life. That’s no way to live.
And finally there’s just good ‘ol jealousy. A pretty girl talks to your boyfriend or husband and immediately its “Off with her head!” I feel it’s human-nature to want to protect and keep what’s “yours,” but I think it’s something you have to take with a grain of salt and you have to remind yourself to recenter yourself and not let it consume you, or it will, indeed, consume you like a fiery furnance. In my 30 years I’ve found it’s not worth it. Anytime I think of jealousy or I feel jealous I remember the words from a song I loved back when I was in junior high called The Sun Screen Song. It goes like this,
Don’t waste your time on jealousy. Sometimes you’re ahead, sometimes you’re behind-the race is long, but in the end, it’s only with yourself.
It’s a good reminder in those moments. I’m most certainly not perfect and I definitely have those moments from time to time, but for whatever reason I had it on my heart to write these things out. I just think jealousy can add such ugliness to the soul and I don’t want my mind, or heart, or words to be consumed with it. God made us to be so much more than that. So who cares if what someone else is doing seems better or more exciting than what we’re doing at the moment, there are also others wishing for the life you and I have. We are all in this together.
So I’m going to step off my soapbox and enjoy the rest of my Saturday, listening to “Love Drunk” by Steve Moakler on repeat while the crew move/wein cattle. 🙂